Since starting program my emotions and thoughts have been all over the place. It has even gotten to the point that I feel that I have gotten worse with my behaviors since starting program. But in reality I know that it’s not that I have gotten worse it’s that the coping skills that I would go to have been taken away because they were not healthy coping skills and since I am not able to go to those I have to find other ways of dealing with things. And that’s where the hard part has come into play. My behaviors and emotions are just out of control and I am not able to cope. I have tried so many different things to help with this but it’s hard. My perfectionism makes it difficult to do some crafts because if I do not excel or do them perfect the first time I end up losing interest and get frustrated, which makes my anxiety act up, which then makes me want to turn to food for comfort! It’s a horrible circle and right now I feel trapped. I don’t know how to move forward. I feel like a hamster trapped in that treadmill and I don’t know how to jump off of it. I took up doing friendship bracelets and that helped me a little bit. But I kept on getting frustrated because the knots would be right or I would grab the wrong string and had to start over. I beat myself up too much! lol Below is pictures of 2 bracelets I made.