I finally decided that it was going to be better for me to take some time off of work. I started IOP in March and I started off doing very well. But it got harder as time progress and work stress was not helping any. I wasn’t able to focus at work. I was always tired and I was not putting in much effort in program. It was all too overwhelming. Something had to give and after much talk with my team I decided to take that step and focus on my recovery. Making the decision was a difficult one. I resisted, I felt some of my control of doing the things I did normally will go away. I didn’t like the fact that someone else would be trying to help do my work. Prior to knowing when my leave was gonna start I tried to prepare and do most of the work so no one had to be inconvenienced. I couldn’t help but feel guilty for taking the time off. I feel ashamed, and felt like I was doing something wrong. I couldn’t understand why I was feeling this way. I wasn’t taking the time to go on vacation or anything. I was taking the time to better my health! Yet I was full of guilt. I know that this will be a good thing for me and I just have to let go of the negative thoughts.